I apologize in advance for the amount of curse words in the paragraph below, and deeply apologize for the long wall of text, with line spacing and stuff. Although lengthy, I did summarize it a lot. Thank goodness to my damn fucking memory!!!!!!
I went poor, without electricity, water, had only bills, did part-time job, insomnia got worse, stress took over, am near depression-line, reasons for that is money, I am not asking money for nothing, read below *Press Ctrl F and type in 3 chaps*, and is the last time I ever ask money like this for any emergency situation. I am willing to reform myself into someone you can trust, and am willing to do anything for that *in TL’ing only and the other work I wrote quite down below*. I just ask for forgiveness. However I ask you to read the first paragraph down below.
So, to start from, 2nd of Jul, I was rampaging through my laptop at incredible speed TL’ing chapters, just when the electricity was cut off.
Yes not a blackout, but rather a cut off of the electricity, all because I hadn’t paid my monthly bills. I was so angry, that I opened up my Paypal account and the Bank Account (with whatever less battery my laptop had) and saw 0 Yen, 0 Usd, 0 Gbp and course shitty ads.
My anger subsided at a rate f1 car speeds from 0-100. That’s pretty……slow. Anyhow, I went out the house for part-time jobs, but remembered it was the goddamn moth*rFu*king time of truly ASSH**LE part-time jobs.
The June to September is never a good time to be getting PART-TIME JOBS, as they pay real less in these months, yet I did take around 5-6.
2 days later, on 4th of Jul, the water supply was cut off. I was like: Oh no, you damn motherfucking son of whore, your mom’s a whore, your dad’s a shemale, your girlfriend is cheating on ya and your secret boyfriend is making porn out of ya, you dickhead!!! * I literally shouted that out in English over the phone. Thank goodness, he didn’t understand my fast English*.
I was seriously goddamned! Now see what poverty makes one do: I pick pocketed (for eating and drinking), did shop lifting without being caught (same as before), even tried to hack my colleagues’ bank account (get rid of problems), unfortunately, those asshole banks have just enough security with almost no cracks in it, expect backdoor which is more or less impossible for me to do without tampering with the computers of banks. *don’t learn stuff from me mates*
Why I didn’t ask my parent? They are on a goddamned honeymoon *really! Honeymoon at 39, that’s so sick, this ain’t anime world!!!!* and have closed off their phones. U know using a sim from one country in another takes up enormous toll on bills, so they have new numbers, which I obviously don’t fucking know!!! *SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIT*
Now then, my stress increased and my insomnia worsened to a state I have felt before, a long time ago. I am currently truly dismayed on what to do. Currently after working enough to lay like a dead log everyday in nights for whole damn assholing 8 days, I am near depression (not yet depressed), and not taking sleeping pills (which is worsening my insomnia), and have got enough money to sustain me for a whole 10 days at most, as I used up most in paying bills. *I am happy to get back my air-con*.
So that’s the big news of why I wasn’t here or even at home most of times, resulting in my loss of everything. Money, trust in readers for not complying by my promises (which happens to be a cause of my near depression state).
I went to a psychologist and a psychiatrist today (former recommended me to latter), and he said to take some prescriptions and release my stress *I can only think of my sadistic personality for that, truly*, he said that the reason for that is surely something that I think for almost all the time, *I thought of gaming, anime-watching, money, porn, fighting, money, porn, making videos, gaining adrenaline rush, porn, porn, money, gaming, etc.* And I understood that it was all related to money! *truly laughable. just see what holy Jesus Christ shit it does with me* (no bad comments by Christians, I’m not belittling Jesus). I mean Jesus Christ was a donating person, so he donated all my money in BILLLS BIIILLLS BIILLLLS BILLLS BILLLS BILL GATES, DAMN IT, WHERE IS THE FUCKING GATE TO GET RID OF BILLS BILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!
No wonder I came up with quite a risky idea and that is making gaming videos without shouting and cringing stuff (I’m looking at ya Poo *die* Pie. Changing name for goddamned delusional copyrights). And for that I require a Ps4 (no high-end PC at moment I have, and also no money to buy it anytime soon).
However, my old one broke a year ago, and this year FF XV, Mafia 3 are coming, oh and something called as Deus Ex Machina shit!
I’m not asking money from you all for nothing, I am just saying in short I won’t be able to post more than 3-5 chapters a day. My limit in this groggy state of my brain. And I just enough to buy a Ps4 here along with some microphone and stuff and games and money for just living in a house with water and electricity (and uni fees. The uni I haven’t been going for quite some days because of no money for even transportation except walking. That uni is oh-milfing-balling-fucking 50 kilometres far from my home), totalling around 1500 bucks. Not less I know, rather big it is.
But this time I will stay up to my promise, and I want to curse at my old damn fucking self to not abide by the promises, which has truly decreased people’s trust in me. *really a depressing factor, I’m not saying false words, but from the bottom of my heart*.
Oh and I need 2-3 bucks more for getting sleeping pill, insomnia is not good for my heart too. I recently feel sick when seeing people having fun, not only riajuu but also otaku’s, and that is not normal already with me being half of both. *I nearly puked in a couple restaurant I was working as a cook in*.
All In ALL, I need you help guys, let this poor TL’er gain his trust back in your guys, and live a healthy life, *I seriously don’t wanna die of hunger. *tears flowing IRL**. After getting the Ps4, I will upload vids on YouTube, broadcast on Twitch, post it here too *only good ones*, and finally the TL’s times won’t change, as I will have taken pills by that time, the ones prescribed by the doc today, 3 chaps a days. *1 part of Mnd = 1 chap of Mnd WN. 2 Chaps of KnM = 1 MnD Chap*.
I just ask for this last time as a seriously emergency money. Never again I will ever for money like this, all will be your support only. *And I will also add Adf.ly and other link shortening links, please support me via whatever link you feel is safe*